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Name: Mark
Gender: Male
Interests: I love a lot of things but Im pretty sure I mentioned those things already but in case you didnt catch it I like the Cardinals, Rams, Blues (even though they wont exsist), Tigers, Badgers in the way of sports teams. School wise I dont like it too much friends are awesome and all but I suppose I would say my favorite subject is history because its as close as I'll ever get to geography in school. I really like reading a good book every now and then and I enjoy watching classic movies and listening to great music like Billy Joel Relient K and classic rockers like Beatles Eagles Jimi and others
Expertise: expertise, isn't it a little early to have an expertise well I suppose tennis is probably an expertise as well as my knowledge of geography Seinfeld and useless trivia I'm pretty good with bible trivia too
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Member Since:
11/12/2004
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| back I avoided doing something on here for so long because it always is
such a waste and everyone sounds like they have a horrible life when
they post on xanga xanga is the place of dramatizing people putting
their emotions out so millions can see and yet here I am becaues for
some reason I need to
christmas time? not for me it hasnt felt like christmas one second of
one day since thanksgiving no christmas movie has struck that cord and
ive seen plenty already theres just too much stress which is ludicrious
because how is it that there is too much stress to celebrate the season
of the birth of a man who would be sinless and die for a horrible
miserable sinner like myself
guilt? does that stop me from the christmas season no I think Ive
pinpointed it its fear yes fear I sit at home alone often these days
the youngest of an old family and it absolutely tears me up I am
terrified of the future Im not afraid to admit that anymore I am
absolutely 100 % terrified I cant stand thinking about leaving behind
the only things that Ive ever known and start anew I dont necessarily
fear change maybe I fear getting old being mortal dying or maybe I just
fear not being able to be myself when I meet new people in a new place
maybe what I fear most of all is saying goodbye to people and not being
able to show or tell them what they have done for me and others I dont
do the whole emotions thing very well Im not going to cry at graduation
I may want to but Im not going to I may want to tell people how I
really feel and give several very emotional goodbyes but I wont the
only thing that I now for sure is that as soon as my dad drives away
from that dorm and Im finally alone with my college stuff and my
thoughts I wont be able to handle it
its my last real christmas in st louis the last time i will be here for
the entire month of december around all the poeple I have known since
6th grade or even kindergarden and I havent been christmasy Ive in fact
been scrooge like and I absolutely hate it senior year is about half
way over and nothing is different from the other years besides the
added stress of college its quite annoying I cant do the things that
Ive wanted to do and I dont really feel as if Ive had enough of a
positive influence on people if I were to total the positives Ive made
and the negatives my overall effect on things would probably be a
negative number and IM not typing this to have people tell me that Im a
good person and shouldnt say stuff like that Im typing it because its
true what I have done to people in the past has not been good Ive made
really realy good friends Ive had girlfriends Ive lost friends but I
havent left enough positives to outweight all the stupid selfish and
down right wrong things that Ive done
in all honesty I have no idea what I want for christmas I think I just
want christmas itself the family back in town the happiness the birth
of jesus I just want to know if its going to turn out ok or not
I really dont know at all xanga brings out the emo in all of us and it finally enticed mine enough to sucker it into coming out
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| hahahahaha
end of summer = a lot of "reflective" end of summer posts
lifes a bunch of cycles and summer is one of them
school is another one of them
one of them is obviously better than the other
the other is obviously longer then the other
basically
SCHOOL HAPPENS
go with the flow
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| Pre Post PS DONT LOOK AT THE LENGTH AND THEN NOT READ THIS PLEASE
apology: Dear David Gao,
there is no doubt in my mind that we will never forget the great times
we had in san diego in the summer of 2006 and I feel that we dont
really have to journal them to remember them they are forever engraved
into our minds becaues those are the times we enjoy so much the fact
that we will remember them without record proves this Im sorry Im lazy
and cant finish yes that is one reason for it to go uncomplete but
really I was thinking about it and if we cant say to each other next
summer "remember that one time last year ......" without going back to
look at my xanga then what have we become???? and speaking of next
summer I have some interesting possibilities brewing already
to everyone:
summer is quick in its speed its lessons and its great moments its
already almost half way through july and the inevitable doom (or not
doom depending on how you are) of school is within sight and
(un)fortunately this year brings about life changing decisions and fun
now yes senior year is supposed to be the greatest thing ever and Ive
been thinknig about it and all I can see in senior year is the fact
that we have to make decisions that will forever impact our lives
obviously what I refer to is college choice but then again there are
other things that one must decide to do how does one handle the leaving
of the same group of people they've known forever what does one want to
leave those people with I really think that people in high school can
leave a mark on others and espcially through senior year now as I look
back at the last few sentences that Ive typed I sound like a really
really sappy stupid teen show scrubb but thats just what these times do
to people they bring them to levels of thought and sometimes
understanding that they didnt realize they would reach
basically I was thinking a few days ago about graduation (who knows if
I graduate or not ) but Ill be sitting there next to Trever Morgan and
Shaham Mumtaz like all ceremonies and MAP testing and Ill be thinking
will I be indifferent at this time? will I be sad? excited? happy? in
all honesty Im not overly enthused about senior year but I know that I
wont be excited to graduate to leave the people Ive known forever it
seems and just start anew somewhere else
yea yea yea I know Ive heard it all I want to leave st louis becaues
its boring because its not diverse enough because Im bored with it I
want to start off new I want to meet new people I want to be able to
sit on the beach to go skiing snowboarding etc etc I know tons of
people want to shake the dust of ole west county and stake out a new
life in a new and exciting place and thats understandable
I dunno Im ranting about nothing
its just that no one can really deny that this year brings about
changes and when it has come to change Ive tried to make myself
apethetic more than anything cardinals new stadium ehhh its ok sister
moving to california eeehhhh Ill see her every now and then going to
college eehhhh its like high school only bigger and more people and
hard lclasses I mean Ive had change come at me in every aspect of my
life but Ive always shook it off basically I dont really know how to
handle the senior year Im going into not thinking its anything special
but at the same time I know its supposed to be
in conclusion sorry david gao this next year should be interesting and GO CARDINALS
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| missed a few days posting our san diegian adventure cause its been
crazy or I was too lazy I suppose it was both civilization is sometimes
just too addictive right david???
Day 6
After waking up later for unremembered reasons the cleaning ladies are
taking up the kitchen and are all up in our grills so we got to Ihop (I
meaning myself david and emily) we all get some version of the rutti
tutti fresh n frutti I dunno why they feel the need to make little
names for all the dishes but hey its their establishment then we get
into some intense civilization competition (we played the same game
everytime I talk about civilization) it was a hot seat game with david
me and jonny so it took forever to finish becaues the pace is like 10
times slower than a normal game anyways davids mom brings home
starbucks and taco bell (we are ravenous after taking over the world
obviously) then play more civilization then we go to seee click with
robert and micheal (who I begin to learn are attached at the hip) click
was surprisingly decent adn david claims he gives it four out of five
stars (later on we hear a tough guy claim that he cried 3 times during
the movie which I find unusual) then we go back to roberts for a few
minutes before heading to red robin it ends up being a very expensive
meal but of course we all eventually admit that we come back only for
the tower of onion rings which are extra delicious this time then we
begin a game of star wars monopoly which is ridiculously rigged infavor
of roberts brother because everyone makes stupid trades giving him the
obvious advantage I was the only one who didnt take place in any
exchanges so he pretty much dominated eventually then we go to carvels
because they are selling ice cream cones for only 34 cents for their
34th anniversary or soemthing of that source everyone claimed it didnt
taste that good except me and micheal I like any kind of ice cream and
probably most foods if you didnt notice then we got back to roberts and
ended up discussing several things that were usually entertaining we
finally left around 1130 but it was an entertaining time to say the
least this day was in fact excellent and should be remember for its
good times and charming covnversations
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| Day 4 (The day of mourning)
I woke up at 5 this morning because my body was shaking for the US
Ghana world cup match if the US wins and Italy wins they're through to
the round of sixteen unfortunately as most of you know they lost
becaues of a pk which was a very questionable call in the last minutes
of the first half I really didnt like the fact aht the game was decided
like that and I was really pissed and angry all of that day it
foreshawdowed our worst day in san diego only because we were bored and
didnt really leave the house we ate breakfast in almost silence and
disgruntlement it was a ddisturbing day indeed then we played melee on
game cube and I whooped up in two tourneys then we played pig and catch
outside just messing around bidding our time jonny left and we went to
Daphnes this greek food place and then carvels an ice cream place we
got our stuff for free cause the guy workig at the time was mental then
we played some xbox more of our frat party tournement after that more
phantom of the opera and billy joel on the piano then we went togo and
try play mini golf we travel far and wide for so long that I fell
asleep and get there only to find that they are closed david had three
driving infractions during this drive including an illegal u-turn which
is why I decided to take a nap instead of watching davids driving then
when we got home we began filiming what would be a rough documentary of
our trip with a singing on the piano and other random moments we
thought were pretty funny it ended up not working amazingly but it was
still a fun thing to do we had pizza for dinner and continued to film
stupid silly moments that we came across in our every day activities
you should see it sometime its entertianment to the extreme then we
wtached rush hour 2 but almost fell asleep at the end so we stopped it
to finish it at a later date and went to bed
the day of mouring was rough
its july 1st what have you done with your summer?
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